Wednesday, 27 October 2010

i need more boost!!!

my another fav season, autumn is here again...
inshaaAllah it would be my last autumn here in manchester..sob sob....

officially finished my 3rd year last September (21st Sept to be exact)
and it remarks the beginning of my 6-months extension granted by my sponsor (terima kasih daun keladi..ngehehe)
and just finished the first month of the extension..wawawawa.....time really flies
truly speaking, i'm not really satisfied with my progress in this first month
it's really challenging to write-up in this kind of weather (ceh, salahkan weather lah skrg kan..huhu)
sleepy and gloomy make u want to sleep and 'bersenang-lenang'
but i put all the blames to myself (although there might be other factors as well...)

the main question that is always in my mind: sempat ke nk habis semua bnde dlm 6 bln ni???
'semua bnde' includes modelling, writing-up, submission, viva, correction......aaaaaaaaaaaaa
still have my modeling part to be done since i just finished my experiments at the end of my 3rd year...(experimental part is another loonnng story)
then writing up is the hardest bit
especially in discussing ur results so that they sound reasonable and acceptable (although ur data might not be that good)
some people managed to get quite good results but the thing that is more matter is how well u can present/explain ur data...
the skill to 'menggoreng' is very very important here
but for that, u really need strong and good basic knowledge in ur research area...
hahaha....that's the main problem actually..
i need more time to read since for the past 2 and half yrs i really focus and read more on my experimental part
but the thing is when i started to read, i will think about my other unsettled works
in other words, 'konflik dalaman'
i guess what i need here is a very good self-discipline and time management..(fokus illi fokus!)
i think that two important things are kinda deteriorating in me now...huhuhu....

need to recite this du'a more often kan: Ya Allah, aku berlindung kepada-Mu dari kelemahan, rasa malas, rasa takut, kejelekan di waktu tua, dan sifat kikir. Dan aku juga berlindung kepada-Mu dari siksa kubur serta bencana kehidupan dan kematian.

what i want to say here is i think i'm not as efficient as I was during my undergrad b4.....is this because of the age factor? haha....(alasan lah tu kan...)

footnote (lah sangat!!): Si kucing putih inshaaAllah will become a malaysian by end of this year..haha...Samdole will be flying back to Malaysia! not sure how Samdole will survive with our hot weather...but we just can't leave Samdole alone here...that cat will feel the loss as much as we will do...*emo kejap*

Samdole yg soleh, turut sama2 memerah kepala membuat analysis bersama cousin sy..harhar....mmg pandai buat muka kesian kan..manalah smpi hati nk meninggalkannya...

-Ok illi, ko patut skrg gigih membaca, bukan berblog...huhu..doakan sy ye-

Friday, 8 October 2010

don't u have a day without smiling, illi?

soalan di atas ditanyakan semlm oleh seorg technician di lab sy sejurus sy tiba di reception tu..

saya: good morning tom!

smbungnya lagi: you always smile and look calm, u also don't complain a lot...don't u have any problem?

kemudian sy senyum: why tom? do u want me not smiling to u?

balasnya: no no..please..i'm taking it back..just continue to smile..see u around then!

kata2 dia tadi mmg buat sy senyum je spjg mendaki tangga 5 tingkat di morton lab tu....dlm hati sy ckp jgk: u sure don't want to see me when i'm not smiling.u can't even imagine it..

well, tak dinafikan hidup seorg diri di bumi manchester ni dgn hampir kesemua urusan adalah bergantung kpd diri sndiri adakalanya boleh menjadikan kita down...
tapi kenapa mahu turutkan hati dan perasaan kan
"ikut rasa binasa, ikut hati mati"
jadi secara rasionalnya, sentiasa lah mencari jalan untuk menceriakan diri sndiri (siapa lagi yg nk ceriakan diri kita melaikan diri kita sndiri kannnnn)
no point kot kalo nk menunjukkan muka misery dan berkecamuk bila berdpn dgn org...
tak mengurangkan masalah pun...
dan bukan kah senyum itu pun satu sedekah...

Dalam sebuah hadis yang diriwayatkan oleh HR. Muslim, Rasulullah berpesan, “Janganlah kalian menganggap remeh kebaikan itu, walaupun itu hanya bermuka cerah pada orang lain,”.

satu tip: cuba gembirakan org lain kalau kita nak happy, inshaaAllah kita pun akan rasa happy......selamat mencuba! ^_^ Laa tahzan, innaallaha ma'anaa