bila diuji.......

it seems that my blogging activity becomes slower n slower kan
hehe.....
actually
for the past 3 weeks
have been a quite challenging moment for me
i'm not complaining here
instead I'm very grateful coz Allah still give me strength to face it
everything that has happened in our life, there must be some reasons behind it kan

i've been physically n mentally challenged
starting from the weather
yeah, winter this year is a bit 'garang'
last year, during this month, the temperature is still ok
cold but not freezing cold
but.....
we had snow already last 3 weeks!
yeay!!!!!!alhamdulillah... (see? setiap yg berlaku ade hikmahnye kan??)
i love the view of whitey snowy
i mean the fresh snow
and the snow stayed longer due to the freezing cold weather

but I couldn't really enjoyed it since I'm having cold n flu
n this time
the cold n flu really test my patience n courage
my friends said i shud take a rest at home n don't expose too much to the freezing cold weather
but
how I could do that
since I'm running my experiment n I shud be in the lab everyday
can't miss any single day
even on the weekend

since I don't have the rest that I should
my recovery process was a bit slow
and
this year, there's a new virus comes from the cold n flu
that causing you to vomit
huhu
yeah, I experienced it too
loya2, tak lalu makan, sakit kepala, mabuk...

believe me
without the will that Allah gave to me
I think i couldn't manage to go to the lab everyday n face the freezing cold outside
sleeping n resting under my comfy duvet is thousand times better
plus the journey from my home to the university really challenging nowadays
when the snow came, the bus didn't come on time
so more n more people waiting
and there was a day when 4 busses just passed us without stopping because those busses already overloaded
my usual journey on that day became nearly 2 hours (salunye paling lmbt pn 45 mins)

and my research??
hmmm
some parts are ok
n some parts really need my full attention
that's what we call research..huhu

alhamdulillah, i'm fully recovered now
no more running nose
feel more energetic
n one more important thing
hav to gain more weight
hahah.....
my s/v said i've lose some weight when we met yesterday
i don't realize it at all since I don't have time to think about it
she reminded me : "please illi, gain some weight during the holiday"
(dalam hati ade cakap jgk, pernah kah aku kelihatan berisi? confuse2)

hahah
what I've been 'membebel' about kan
nyways
bitter experience makes you stronger
i accept all of these as part of my journey to be more succeed in the future, InsyaAllah
and this is a very small test from Allah
very very small i would say
at least, i got all the facilities, financially stable and families who always support me kan
everytime I face difficulties, I always say all these to myself:
"ramai lagi orang lebih susah dari ko Illi....dan ujian ini tandanya Allah mengasihi kita, ataupun ujian ini adalah untuk kita lebih dekat kepada Allah kerana kite selalu melupakanNya....dan setiap ujian ada hikmah di sebaliknye"

al-Baqarah,2: 233
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~ya Allah, kami bersyukur di atas nikmat Iman, Islam dan segalanya yang telah Engkau berikan kepada kami ^_^~